Science North

So, I just rediscovered this right now… and although its not finished… I doubt ill finish it any time soon, or at all… so yeah, I'm just gonna post it

So, I just came back from an allnighter science trip… and I think I'm going a bit crazy, so bare with me if what I write doesn't make sense.

Yesterday I went to science north, in Sudbury. It was a 4.5 hour drive up there and although it was a long ride, it was also a good and fun ride. I wanted to sit beside someone … but of course, I ended up not sitting beside them. The blind side was on and since I watched it already and I wasn't planning to watch it again and since other people wanted to watch it I decided to switch seats with them. But I was gonna switch with one person, but then I ended up switching with another person and then another person… two of whom I'm not too fond of. But yeah, it's ok… eventually I sat alone on the way there… and I guess it was ok… just that I didn't really get to talk to anyone. On the ride back however, I sat beside someone and close to someone haha so many someones but yeah… and I guess.. ok let's just stop this is getting confusing.

I actually really enjoyed the free time we had when we got there, the time we had to walk around the lake and the centre and just hang out with friends and take some pictures. I thought that was really quite fun. I guess this trip overall allowed me to spend a lot of time with the pacers. It got me to understand some of them better and really take part in the exciting things they do together, even if its just sitting on a table and eating. xD

I can do it!

For the past little while I have been thinking and wasting time. Haha… I should really be using my time more effectively and taking more responsibility for my work. But here I am once again, blogging instead of facebooking, which is good really at least to me, this seems more appropriate and more better than doing some things dot dot dot

Ohh btw, no more Saturday math!!! Yaya! Its all finished! And I'm happy =D

On Friday, I finally did my English presentation. For the previous few days, Thursday and Wednesday I kinda wanted to go and I wasn't nervous at all, but on Friday when I made up my mind and actually told the teacher that I wanted to go, I was really worried and nervous. That was pretty much my whole Friday – being worried about my English presentation. I was worried that I would stutter, that I would not be as good as everyone else. I was worried that I would not be able to explain things well, that I would have to read off the sheet. I was worried about everything you could worry about. But when I actually got up to present, I felt kinda relieved. Relieved that I decided to present, relieved that I took control of my fears and tackled them. Although my presentation wasn't as good as it could have been and it wasn't the best, I am happy and proud with what I have done. I know there is no reason to worry about my mark now and freak out over anything. I know that I have tried my best – and that is enough… although I could do better next time…

So next week will be another super busy week, and although a part of me is dreading it, another part is eagerly anticipating it. Monday is SAS!! Yay! I'm excited for that cause its been a month since we had the last meeting and there is always so much stuff to talk about and discuss. I just love the thought about telling people about volunteering, although I would love even more to hear about how volunteering has helped others. Tuesday I have the training session for Mt. Alverno with Sister Jackie which I am kinda worried for… well somewhat. Cause I do not know what to expect. I have no clue what we will be doing that day and I hate that feeling! School on Wednesday is what I am dreading, because I have three consecutive tests. I have my religion test because I will miss it on Tuesday, a math test on rational functions and a chem. Quest which is pretty much a test that I am worried for. But after school I will be tutoring, which is exciting cause I haven't tutored in a while… well actually its just been a few days. At night I am having a home visit for YAY and that sounds really exciting =D then the long awaited SCIENCE NORTH TRIP on Thursday and Friday! I am actually starting to get excited for that… I just don't know what we'll be doing as activities – I hope I can actually learn something and help the grade nines out at the same time… they just might be smarter than me…

Then on Monday we have the Caledon trip… which I am half excited for too, but I am also kinda concerned for some of the things we do and whether I will be able to lead properly and be a good enough leader,,, but I guess I will not know until Monday… lets just hope all goes well

Euhh… I will be missing a total of 6 days of school within the next two weeks… that is not good. I am worried because I will have so much work to do and I will miss soo much! I have already gotten some work, but I don't feel like working on it at the moment… and this blog post has taken almost an hour… including the poem…

 

I have finally written another poem… isn't that exciting?

I was randomly inspired as is the usual case… initially I thought I was just writing a blog post, then it turned into more of a poem … now that I reread it a few times and edited it a bit, it kinda feels like a prayer too… but I guess its more of an inspirational poem… yeah that's what it is.

 

Well, hope you enjoy it… and listen to it for that matter…

Feel free to criticize it!

But whether it is good or bad, the meaning is still there and should be portrayed pretty well…

So here it goes…

…

After this…

…

And this…

=D

Our Potential

 

We cannot speak what we do not think;

We cannot do what we do not chose;

We cannot have what we do not ask;

& we cannot accomplish what we do not dream.

 

However,

We can do what we have not been asked

We can do more than we have tried

We can help those who are not worthy

We can thank those who have not given gratitude

And we can love those who have hated.

 

We have the power to do so -

As long as we believe,

We will have;

The power of words,

the power of choice,

and the will to do better

 

We all have the potential

to do more than we have done,

to be more than we believe

and to try harder than we have tried.

 

We are special,

strong,

gifted,

unique

and superior.

 

we must have confidence,

take initiative,

be determined,

believe,

and take control of our lives

 

in doing so;

we can do more than we have done

be more than we believe

and succeed more than we have ever dreamed.

 

Well, "you have officially reached the end of this blog post" thank you very much for reading and hope you have a great day!

Haha…

Anywho, hope you enjoyed reading the poem and hearing or reading me freak out and worry about my week

There is no need for a quote,… poem instead

Hope you all can take matters into your own hands and take a small step in making a big difference.

interviews

I was just going to go to sleep. I even turned off my computer, brushed my teeth, sat on my bed… then I decided to text some people … and the next thing you know… i'm on the computer… blogging =D

I really want to sleep… - sorry I couldn't help but to say that haha

Tonight was parent-teacher interview night. That was exciting… not the actual interviewing part… but the part where I got to volunteer… he he … I love to volunteer with the school at these events… its soo exciting and stuff… its hard to describe… and although I know that like half of you are thinking I'm crazy weird right now… and the truth is… I am… and I like it that way… =D /// and for those of you in my English class…. I was on the red team… and I liked it there =DDD

My actual interviews themselves were… kinda expected… and kinda good

I enjoyed them… well to a certain extent overall because kinda motivated me… it made me want to try harder and want to do better and set a direction on how I could do so

My first interview was my math interview… and I like wasted 10 minutes which felt like 50 minutes standing there waiting for the interview… it was a waste of time… I could have been helping some late… lost.. and worried and scared parents out… so yeah, math was just math… nothing to say… nothing exciting happened really except for one thing… I was saying how courses can be hard depending on the teacher… and she greatly opposed that and take offence… but I wasn't talking about her. And she's like no matter which teacher it is, the course is still the same, the teachers not going to make it hard, it's the actual course material and the curriculum that makes it difficult… and I'm like right yes… that is soo true… no its not

So second interview… religion! I mentioned to the teacher that I wanted to get 100 and hes like… did you know… its really hard to get 100 and I'm like yes I know… but I'm willing to try it… and then he's like, I've never given out 100 before and I'm like thanks that was very encouraging… thanks for ruining my dreams… lol

Van was ok… predictable… didn't say anything weird or really good or really bad.. just work harder and what do you expect… after all it's pace

English was English… she said I improved since the beginning and I hope I did.. and I hope I continue to

So yeah basically new goals and new challenges lie ahead!

Quote ish thing…

Challenges are a part of life… without challenges; life would be boring and we would not succeed and be able to strive for our goals. Our goals wouldn't even be goals 'cause we'd reach them so easily…

 

Success = faith + luck + determination + friends =D

 

Good luck to you all… I hope (know) that you guys will all be successful in life and reach your goals … hopefully I will too

Deprived of sleep

So yeah, this is the first time I have posted something this early in the morning and I certainly hope its gonna be the last…

Just a heads up… if you're reading this and it starts to get confusing… I apologize… but there is a reason behind it =D

The weekend and these past few days were one of the busiest and most stressful times ever! So on Saturday night and all of Sunday… at least when I was doing work… I spent time doing the religion brochure… which I was expecting due the end of this week… instead of doing my English project which I knew was due on Wednesday. Then later Sunday night and evening… after I went to ikea… I bought two drawers… my mom and I spent two hours or so building them and by the end of the night at like 11pm we finished. Then Monday… ohh right, yesterday which is Monday I went on the World Religions, Tour of Places of Worship trip. Most the people last semester said it was boring and a waste of time… so I didn't really have my hopes up… we went to four different places… and two of the four I found particularly interesting and the rest I just kinda found boring as everyone else said. >>> just a random thought… do people like to listen with their eyes closed? … cause I do (=

After school or the trip on Monday I finished my religion assignment and then I worked on stuff for SAS and other random errands here and there and as I was trying to work on my English seminar… nothing came to me. Like I was tired before I started working… when I got home, cause I didn't really sleep on the bus although I was tired… I ended up reading my CPT book which I am desperate to finish. So I decided to go to bed early … 9 pm early yesterday.

So today comes along and majority of my day is me worrying about the chem. Test then me worrying about English… So I had a chem. Test today and I'm not even gonna comment on it – it was harrible!

So basically today when I got home after tutoring at like 4 o'clock… I was already anticipating the pile of English homework I had to do and also the amount of time it would take to finish it. So then I took a shower… to think <yes showers help me think> and then at like 430 I started doing my English and I guess I did my English pretty productively… I didn't waste any time… it was just hard to come up with ideas… but I did and I did it for 30 minutes… then I remembered I had to call a tutoring kids' parent back… and so I did… and I ended up talking for another 30 minutes. So then at 530… I hang up and realize that I have 15 minutes for my dinner… and change and pack… which wasn't enough time… so I like finished 1/3 of it and left. I went to dollarama after to get Bristol boards for my English project cause I was missing one colour… then I went to the York regional police volunteering information session from 7-9 with melisha. I'd say it was overall a pretty good overall so yeah

So I basically got home at 9:30 and started working at 9:30 on my English project and stayed up the whole night working on it. I look at the clock every once in a while… and eventually it goes to the point where I look at the clock every fifteen minutes… haha… so yeah for my project … I finished my notes and the information at like 12 and then I started gluing and stuff and I finished everything at 5:30 on the dock!

 

So yeah I could have slept for an hour… I guess, but I was hungry, so I made something to eat instead… and I was kinda worried that if I slept an hour… I couldn't wake up and I'd be more tired than I am now…

 

So yeah for time purposes and the reason that I'm really tired right now

I'm gonna skip the quote… but if anyone would like to come up with their own quote *hint hint* lemme know… and I'll put it up!

 

=D

Really short post…

Well, considering the fact that it is like one in the morning and that I am sooo tired that I can barely see the screen, hopefully I can make this short….

So, I've realized that more and more people are starting to read this… and it's scary. LOL… although I'm not completely sure who really reads this, although it would be nice to know… but I'll just have to expect or pretend that anyone or everyone will read it… dum dum dum…

I personally enjoy reading blogs, especially if they're ones that belong to my friends, although I sometimes spend hours and hours reading blogs of peoples' whom I don't know but still… it's kinda become part of my daily routine haha

I guess, the reason why I started actually posting the things that I typed on a blog online is because I started getting addicted or just finding amusement in reading others' blogs, even the blogs of strangers and I kinda hoped that by posting these things, others may find amusement in them too… maybe learn from the stupid things I do… the mistakes I make… and get to know me a bit better… iunno… hmm….

All right, so let's see, what happened so far this weekend…

So we are painting the house… and we have painted two rooms… I think that's all the painting we're gonna do this weekend, tomorrow we're going to IKEA! Yay! To get some new furniture… possibly some drawers for my room?

So I have been really busy with school work… and I have surprisingly done more work than I expected though I am still behind my scheduled work plan haha…

OH NO! - I still have to do SAS stuff.. shoot I forgot… euhh, okay gotta go… better do that now before I forget….

But quote first!

"If you're good, you can tell others; if you're great, they'll tell you."

• That is soo true… no wonder I haven't had anyone tell me that I'm great… hahah
  

Sorry for the short post… well some of you may enjoy the shortness I guesss…

Fusion & the rest of the day…

All right, so today started out really bad cause I was really tired in the morning… although my usual morning routine was kinda messed up, but it was still good! So classes presumed as usual except for chem. Which was great! The whole class for crystal lab!... hope our crystal stays big and gets bigger and bigger and bigger…

So a lot of things happened today…

1. I became Janice
   
2. I got married
   
3. I have two children
   
4. I got attacked
   
5. I got accused of a crime
   
6. I was sexually harassed
   
7. I saw a guy running around carrying a garbage can
   
8. I say my math teacher using chopsticks…
   
9. I got lots of food
   
10. I had lots of fun
    
11. I drank coffee so I'm going crazy now… not literally
    

Well, I stayed after school from 2:30pm till 9:30 pm… so that was funn… it was really funn actually. After school I wasted time for a bit, then went to math help and helped out, not getting help.. which was funn and a good waste of time. Then I just wasted more time, which wasn't good but still… uhm, this is one of the events at school that I didn't get to volunteer and help out, but I still had an equal amount of funn!

As for the performances… they were GREAT! And that is an understatement. They were seriously really really good, I didn't expect them to be this good… I could say that they were just as good if not a bit better than bandaid… (Lukies – don't kill me) I really admire and respect all those who got up to perform, I think they are so brave and courageous. The amount of courage and effort it takes to just get up there, not to mention all the time and commitment they put into the performance is just amazing. I am really proud of all of them… I'm proud just to say that I know them…

In the beginning, I thought I might regret going to fusion and staying after school and stuff because I would miss valuable studying time and stuff, but really, it was definitely worth it, and even if I fail my test (which I will, but I hope I won't) it was worth it..

Gotta stop here, make this short… work time!

So time for the quote…

Something I heard on the announcements I think…

"it's when things go wrong that you mustn't quit"

Once again, Good Job fusion performers!!

Signed: Janice … … … Mike C

Too much

I should really be doing work right now… like I have soo much stuff to do… I shouldn't really be blogging, but I guess I kinda feel that I should write about what's been going through my head these past few days… or maybe even just today.

So I think the highlight of my day was surprisingly the liturgy that we had in the morning. I was kinda looking forward to it this morning and yesterday when I heard of it… I don't quite know why, but I just was. This morning, when my alarm rang, I was like: waaat already?" I was even thinking of like sleeping in and what not cause first period was nothing – that thought just ran through my head… but then I'm like, we have liturgy, I shouldn't really miss it… maybe I will learn something… maybe it will be good… and yepp, I was right, it was good, and I really liked it. I think the things that have been mentioned during today's liturgy was something that I already knew, but it was amusing to hear again because it was like a random flashback of yesterday. It's really funny because something that the priest mentioned today was part of what I talked about for my interview yesterday, and I was really shocked…

Uhm, I guess that like my life so far, is really busy… I know I say that often but its really quite weird, cause I can say that I sort of like it busy cause then I don't have to waste time and I can do soo much stuff and I can do things that really need to be done and important things instead of wasting time on things that I don't need to do. But then there are times like today after school when I got home… it was weird… I didn't even sit down on my chair yet, all I did was lean in and put my hand on the headrest of my chair and I started crying… it was really bad… I don't even know what I was crying for and why I was crying… during the time, I was constantly thinking; "what's wrong? What's happening, why is this happening?" but I guess I kinda felt better after… something that I don't feel often… (hmm… might regret posting this… but … I think I'll regret either way…)

I have a chem. Test on Friday… and I am really worried for it. Like chem. Is good, but its hard, I like it better than physics, but its still not the best. Like I spend time on it… I really do, I spent such a long time on this worksheet that we had to hand in and I was kinda confident after I finished and when I handed it in. but when I got it back, I didn't do so good… and I was worried, I am worried. I need to know what I did wrong and how I can fix it… but like the thing is that even though I spend so long doing it and put so much effort into it, it somehow, just like physics doesn't really work out, and all my effort just seems to go to waste. I know that sometimes when people ask me; are you worried, are you ready, did you study and stuff, I usually just say no, yes, no respectively… but that's usually not the case… I don't know why I say it, now that I think of it, but I just do… right, getting back on track… so about the chem. Test, I really need to study and I should be studying now, but I'm blogging… which is more important =D… but yeah, so I have to study tomorrow after school, but I am going to fusion, and I'm not going home before that, meaning I will start working at 9 and for some reason, the past few days, I have been super tired. Maybe its because I'm sleeping late, but I'm not really sleeping that late, I don't know why, I'm just super tired lately. And I kinda have to go tomorrow, first of all because I bought the ticket already, but its not just because of the price… I kinda wanna watch the performances, especially because lots of them are my friends who are performing, but also because I promised some people I would go and I would stay after school and I don't wanna break that promise… so basically I'm choosing not to break that promise over my chem. Test. But if I think about it, if I just study really hard tonight and pretend the test is tomorrow and study today as if the test was tomorrow, I should be okay right? I mean I don't think that I will do any better if I study on Thursday, and I don't think that I will really end up studying on Thursday either. I guess, sometimes I go to the point where I sort of give up… well not really, but something like that… like I just get fed up. It seems that no matter how hard I try, how much more time I put in than others it still doesn't work…

This is just the beginning, I haven't even started with my other subjects yet… and I will soon miss a full week of school… I am going to KILL myself soon! O.O

Euhh…

 

Alright, so much for a short post… anywho, sorry guys for making you read all my troubles… and stuff… but I guess, blogging for me is sort of a way to say what goes on in my head, it's a way for me to let out my emotions and how I feel about different things. Like right now, when I'm typing this post, I'm just on word and I'm typing whatever comes to mind without worrying about what others think and who might read this… but then… every once in a while I realize that this is a blog that I'm writing and I might edit a few things here and there haha but yeah… I guess its more of a diary or "journal" for me, but I'm just posting it online… cause before blogging, I used to type entries like this, but more personal on my computer and save the files… so yeah…

Okay… I have to put this in… I couldn't help it… mass quote!

"the difference between a smart person and a wise person is that the smart people learn from their own mistakes whereas a wise person learns from others' mistakes"

• I hope that myself along with all of you would be a wise person and learn from others' mistakes. I know that we can't be mistakeless.. haha my word! .. but we can still learn from others' mistakes as much as possible to decrease the amount of mistakes that we make… it will make out lives easier…
  

"the troubles and sufferings that go on in our life are there because God wants us to learn and grow stronger because of them."

• Funny thing is that that is somewhat similar to what I said… just in a different context… and what not
  

Hehe, thanks guys

1215 word post… now 1218…

Long and Busy Weekend

    Well, since someone reminded me of blogging… I decided to write another post…

I can kinda say that this weekend was one of the most busiest weekends I've had in the longest while. So let's see, on Saturday, what ended up happening was waking up super early, then driving to the library and tutoring. The tutorial wasn't bad, better than I expected… and I even wasted time reading books… haha I couldn't help it. I had to like RUN with everyone else and line up to get a room… brings back memories… haha After that… and being 10 bucks richer, I go and do some exercise with my mom… something I haven't done in the longest while… and still today, my mom is whining about, because she is soooo tired… and my arms hurt… haha

    Math school next and wow, my first take-home exam, and also my first time randomly, literally randomly circling answers for multiple choice cause I had no clue what I was doing and I also left things blank… not good… after math, I was supposed to go watch a movie… but I ended up going to Chako, cause my brother for some reason wanted to go. We went to the one in scarborough, the new one that opened… it's pretty nice there, bigger and better than the old one… after that I went home and resumed my reading of A Passage to Boredom India*.

    I started doing some of my work.. like math and chem., and unfortunately I don't understand half (more like everything). So that's not good. On the other hand I was worrying about a bajillion things as usual. Like the interview on Tuesday, how there is soo much work to be done, English, and many many many other things.

Today I surprisingly woke up at 12 noon, wow, I haven't slept in that late since like forever… but I guess it's cuz I was reading passage till 2… so yeah, I was supposed to go to Ikea today, but I ended up reading the book till like 3 and then we left the house and went to dollarama, and home depot. My mom wanted to fix up one of the rooms for my brother, so he could have his own room.. and we're doing all this stuff for him and he's just sitting there on his couch, comfortably and playing games, completely oblivious to everything around him… cannot believe this guy – jeeez

So yeah, we're basically gonna move furniture around and paint the rooms of my house during the course of the week… isn't that exciting?

Hmm… just a random thought… wouldn't it be nice to see people's reactions to things … like see their real reactions… or like be able to see whether they are smiling or crying or their facial expressions as they read things on the other end of their computer?

It has been quite a Loooooong while since I have written a poem… maybe something soon will inspire me to write one…

Lately, with my life being really busy and things seeming really messy… it feels like I or everyone needs a break. We should treasure the time we have and make the best of it. We can only be this age and do certain things and feel certain ways only once… keep that in mind…

Well, time for the quote!... I love quotes, as you can all probably tell by now…

Ok, this one is stolen from some person during the Award's Night last year… haha I'm sure Mr. Hei Yu remembers this…

"a pessimist will see difficulties when opportunities arise, whereas an optimist will see opportunities in difficulties"

- I hope that through all the difficult times in our lives we will be able to live through them, make good decisions and find opportunities during those times. I know that if we are open, take initiative and accept reality, we will definitely succeed and be the best that we can be!

Ohh, and just a question to keep you thinking – it kept me thinking for a while – "what colour is love to you?"

Apparently, the colours vary depending on those you love… =D

Good luck to you all and goodnight!

 

Mike C

Is it worth it?… yes it is!

After school I went home and as I was waiting to go outside for dinner, I decided to sit down and cancel some appointments and call up some people. I called one of the places where I want to volunteer at and cancelled the orientation that I signed up that is supposed to be tomorrow. I feel bad for cancelling, because this is the third time that I cancelled. I called YAY and asked them about how the application progress is going and I also called the York Regional Police and told them that I would be going to their orientation and that I would be bringing a friend with me. Then, just as I finished talking, my phone rang… it was some person that I do not have on my contacts. A person for tutoring, so I'm like yay another person to tutor for next week… just cause I have nothing to do NEXT week. She asked me if I tutored science, and I'm like yes I do, and I would love to tutor you. And then I'm like ok, so when would you like to see me next week… and she's like, actually I have a test on Monday, would I be able to meet with you tomorrow, and I'm thinking "WTF! Are you kidding me!?! Tomorrow, and test on Monday?! Another late person, jeeesh I'm packed tomorrow… euhh" so I tell her that I am busy tomorrow, but she says that she needs the help, so I try my best to find a time when I can tutor her at the library and I think; "hmm, maybe in the morning, but that means that I will have to wake up early…" so yeah it ends up that I have to wake up early tomorrow morning and miss my Saturday morning sleep and go tutor… and I'm tutoring ecology… as I found out, I'm like ohh shoot my stuff is at school… So thank GOD I have a GREAAT friend who just so happened to be at school at that time and helped me get my stuff from my locker and passed it to me… so on behalf of myself and the kid I'm tutoring; THANK YOU! =D

Tonight I have to sleep earlier too… cause I have to wake up early tomorrow, … thinking about it, I don't know if it was a good choice to say yes and tutor tomorrow… but I guess, it's just another thing I'm doing once again to help someone else… let's just hope it actually helps…

It always seems as if I have a lot of work to do and that there is always no stop to it and stress is just bombarding my mind… it's not not fair, I mean, I guess it's life… but I think maybe a break here and there might help….

So let's see… next week is busy too… MYTA on Tuesday… ohh that's what I'm excited for, but I just found out that I am being interviewed by the kids in MYTF… so that's kinda scary… I guess I'd rather be interviewed by adults…

I was thinking the other day, and I realized… well I kinda knew this all along but… I'm just gonna make a big deal of it now haha… well so the thing is that friends are really important. Friends help us through good times and bad times, they are always by our sides. Without my friends, I know that I will not be who I am today, I will not have done what I have done. I do not regret being friends with anyone… except for maybe some people haha… but yeah, friends are great, without them, I would be no where in life and still be lost in a big deep dark never ending tunnel… with not hope…

Well, let's just hope all goes well and my life will continue on as usual, with its normal ups and downs… nothing too out of place, nothing too dramatic…

Another quote for the closing…

"Sometimes we just have to accept the inevitable and face the truth – we can't always have what we want and do what we want or be who we've always wanted to be… sometimes life just doesn't turn out the way we expect or anticipate it to; it's unfortunate, but it's reality… "

Ooo! I like this one too…

Yeah I'm just coming up with these random quotes off the top of my head… so they may not sound right haha

Last one!

"in life, bad things aren't the only things that happen unexpectedly, good things do too!"

Ohh, I kinda have to put this one… this is really the last one and it's stolen from someone… =D

"Twenty years from now, you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the things that you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your said. "

    Explore.

        Dream.

            Discover.

-Thanks… I know that if I didn't get to know you… (and everyone else) better this year or the last, I would definitely regret and be disappointed in myself "twenty years from now…" You're the best! =D

 

Mike C

04/06/10

I guess it's been a while since I posted... so let's see, what happened during the looong four day weekend. Well, pretty much all I remember is driving! Haha, I drove a lot this weekend, I drove everywhere we went. Well, I watched two movies... the last song and the clash of the titans. OMG the last song was really good, if I wasn't at the theatres I would have cried =D

    I can say that I really enjoyed my long weekend, although there were a few surprises and what not here and there, but overall it was still pretty good. I think I really needed that break. I didn't have much work, nor did I do much work and thank god for that cause I needed the rest. But now its back to school.. I was kinda dreading it yesterday night, but this morning everything was fine, I was actually kinda worried about the meeting for BAM cause I didn't know what I wanted to say yet.

    Well... let's skip what happened during school. When I got back home, I was just feeling lazy and I ended up watching a movie... Astro Boy! Ehh, it was ok I guess, better than I expected, but could have been better. I don't like the days when I don't have any homework, or don't have a lot of homework, a day like today. I only have math to work on, and I am NOT working on it. I have to read an English book, which I should probably start on, but yeah. Well, something good happened today, MADD sent me an email for the volunteering session they are having soon and heart and stroke foundation sent me the new volunteering newsletter, so volunteering and stuff is really good, except for the fact that no one has called my back from YAY yet.

    Lately, although there was the long weekend, I have still been really really tired for some reason. But yeah, hopefully the rest of the week goes well, my marks stay the same, there is less stress, less worries and less work!

Let's end it off with a quote...

"There are many happy times and sad times in our life. But why be unhappy? Why should we be troubled over the little things in life and be discontent? We only live life once, time keeps ticking and we cannot turn back, live life to its fullest and live a happy life!"

Crying and loving...

What is with the stereotype that guys don't cry, I mean jeez. Everyone cries, even and especially guys. Crying is an output, it is a way to show your emotions, it is a spontaneous reaction to the feelings that bloom inside of you, coming straight from within the heart and where your true feelings itself show. There are many times in my life where I am lucky enough to experience many tragic, riveting, touching and truly emotional times – feeling them with my heart and touching with my mind the things that go on around me. Yet at these times, at that very second when I feel and actually feel my heart splitting, feel that tense grasp of something in my chest, that weird feeling you feel every time something really important to you or just some... something indescribable, it's a feeling that just comes, it comes and goes whenever it pleases, it's a feeling you get during the happy times and during the bad times.

What I understood was the importance of family, the importance of love of whatever nature. Whether it be love for your family, love for your dog, your first love, unconditional love, true love, whatever it may be, it is still an essential part of our lives. As humans we all need love, and we all need to be loved. We all have to show our emotions and we have to feel, we have to understand, we have to live, we have to perceive and we have to help. It is in our soul and in our nature to love. It is through love that we discover our true self; it is through love that we truly understand the importance of life and the meaning or the reason why we came to be.

There are many people who may not feel that they need love, they may not feel that they have love, they may have lost the feeling of love and they may have pushed those they love away. They may have been loved but then lost their loved ones through a terrible mistake, through a tragic or horrific event. They may think that they have never been loved and have always been mistreated, but it is through the misunderstanding and the lack of love that they will feel love and come to treasure and understand it more than anyone else in the world. Whatever the case, everyone in this world either has been loved or will be loved. Love is everywhere. It can be found in the relationships people develop with each other, whether they be friendships or rivalries, these are all relationships, there is always something, a bond, a connection that humans make with each other.

Love can be with our pets, a dog or cat or fish or turtle. It could be from a family whether it be your family or someone else's family... but most of all, love is within us, we all have a love for ourselves. We must all learn to love ourselves, to understand ourselves and to gain self respect and self understanding - intrapersonal skills.

It is through true love and the trust we have in others that we will be able to truly understand ourselves. None of us will be able to live on this life long journey of living and loving alone, we must be accompanied by friends and family and pets and strangers. It is with the relationship and the special connection we have with each and everything we come in contact with that we can truly come to learn more about ourselves and understand what it is to experience a life of love.