Fusion & the rest of the day…

All right, so today started out really bad cause I was really tired in the morning… although my usual morning routine was kinda messed up, but it was still good! So classes presumed as usual except for chem. Which was great! The whole class for crystal lab!... hope our crystal stays big and gets bigger and bigger and bigger…

So a lot of things happened today…

1. I became Janice
   
2. I got married
   
3. I have two children
   
4. I got attacked
   
5. I got accused of a crime
   
6. I was sexually harassed
   
7. I saw a guy running around carrying a garbage can
   
8. I say my math teacher using chopsticks…
   
9. I got lots of food
   
10. I had lots of fun
    
11. I drank coffee so I'm going crazy now… not literally
    

Well, I stayed after school from 2:30pm till 9:30 pm… so that was funn… it was really funn actually. After school I wasted time for a bit, then went to math help and helped out, not getting help.. which was funn and a good waste of time. Then I just wasted more time, which wasn't good but still… uhm, this is one of the events at school that I didn't get to volunteer and help out, but I still had an equal amount of funn!

As for the performances… they were GREAT! And that is an understatement. They were seriously really really good, I didn't expect them to be this good… I could say that they were just as good if not a bit better than bandaid… (Lukies – don't kill me) I really admire and respect all those who got up to perform, I think they are so brave and courageous. The amount of courage and effort it takes to just get up there, not to mention all the time and commitment they put into the performance is just amazing. I am really proud of all of them… I'm proud just to say that I know them…

In the beginning, I thought I might regret going to fusion and staying after school and stuff because I would miss valuable studying time and stuff, but really, it was definitely worth it, and even if I fail my test (which I will, but I hope I won't) it was worth it..

Gotta stop here, make this short… work time!

So time for the quote…

Something I heard on the announcements I think…

"it's when things go wrong that you mustn't quit"

Once again, Good Job fusion performers!!

Signed: Janice … … … Mike C

Too much

I should really be doing work right now… like I have soo much stuff to do… I shouldn't really be blogging, but I guess I kinda feel that I should write about what's been going through my head these past few days… or maybe even just today.

So I think the highlight of my day was surprisingly the liturgy that we had in the morning. I was kinda looking forward to it this morning and yesterday when I heard of it… I don't quite know why, but I just was. This morning, when my alarm rang, I was like: waaat already?" I was even thinking of like sleeping in and what not cause first period was nothing – that thought just ran through my head… but then I'm like, we have liturgy, I shouldn't really miss it… maybe I will learn something… maybe it will be good… and yepp, I was right, it was good, and I really liked it. I think the things that have been mentioned during today's liturgy was something that I already knew, but it was amusing to hear again because it was like a random flashback of yesterday. It's really funny because something that the priest mentioned today was part of what I talked about for my interview yesterday, and I was really shocked…

Uhm, I guess that like my life so far, is really busy… I know I say that often but its really quite weird, cause I can say that I sort of like it busy cause then I don't have to waste time and I can do soo much stuff and I can do things that really need to be done and important things instead of wasting time on things that I don't need to do. But then there are times like today after school when I got home… it was weird… I didn't even sit down on my chair yet, all I did was lean in and put my hand on the headrest of my chair and I started crying… it was really bad… I don't even know what I was crying for and why I was crying… during the time, I was constantly thinking; "what's wrong? What's happening, why is this happening?" but I guess I kinda felt better after… something that I don't feel often… (hmm… might regret posting this… but … I think I'll regret either way…)

I have a chem. Test on Friday… and I am really worried for it. Like chem. Is good, but its hard, I like it better than physics, but its still not the best. Like I spend time on it… I really do, I spent such a long time on this worksheet that we had to hand in and I was kinda confident after I finished and when I handed it in. but when I got it back, I didn't do so good… and I was worried, I am worried. I need to know what I did wrong and how I can fix it… but like the thing is that even though I spend so long doing it and put so much effort into it, it somehow, just like physics doesn't really work out, and all my effort just seems to go to waste. I know that sometimes when people ask me; are you worried, are you ready, did you study and stuff, I usually just say no, yes, no respectively… but that's usually not the case… I don't know why I say it, now that I think of it, but I just do… right, getting back on track… so about the chem. Test, I really need to study and I should be studying now, but I'm blogging… which is more important =D… but yeah, so I have to study tomorrow after school, but I am going to fusion, and I'm not going home before that, meaning I will start working at 9 and for some reason, the past few days, I have been super tired. Maybe its because I'm sleeping late, but I'm not really sleeping that late, I don't know why, I'm just super tired lately. And I kinda have to go tomorrow, first of all because I bought the ticket already, but its not just because of the price… I kinda wanna watch the performances, especially because lots of them are my friends who are performing, but also because I promised some people I would go and I would stay after school and I don't wanna break that promise… so basically I'm choosing not to break that promise over my chem. Test. But if I think about it, if I just study really hard tonight and pretend the test is tomorrow and study today as if the test was tomorrow, I should be okay right? I mean I don't think that I will do any better if I study on Thursday, and I don't think that I will really end up studying on Thursday either. I guess, sometimes I go to the point where I sort of give up… well not really, but something like that… like I just get fed up. It seems that no matter how hard I try, how much more time I put in than others it still doesn't work…

This is just the beginning, I haven't even started with my other subjects yet… and I will soon miss a full week of school… I am going to KILL myself soon! O.O

Euhh…

 

Alright, so much for a short post… anywho, sorry guys for making you read all my troubles… and stuff… but I guess, blogging for me is sort of a way to say what goes on in my head, it's a way for me to let out my emotions and how I feel about different things. Like right now, when I'm typing this post, I'm just on word and I'm typing whatever comes to mind without worrying about what others think and who might read this… but then… every once in a while I realize that this is a blog that I'm writing and I might edit a few things here and there haha but yeah… I guess its more of a diary or "journal" for me, but I'm just posting it online… cause before blogging, I used to type entries like this, but more personal on my computer and save the files… so yeah…

Okay… I have to put this in… I couldn't help it… mass quote!

"the difference between a smart person and a wise person is that the smart people learn from their own mistakes whereas a wise person learns from others' mistakes"

• I hope that myself along with all of you would be a wise person and learn from others' mistakes. I know that we can't be mistakeless.. haha my word! .. but we can still learn from others' mistakes as much as possible to decrease the amount of mistakes that we make… it will make out lives easier…
  

"the troubles and sufferings that go on in our life are there because God wants us to learn and grow stronger because of them."

• Funny thing is that that is somewhat similar to what I said… just in a different context… and what not
  

Hehe, thanks guys

1215 word post… now 1218…

Long and Busy Weekend

    Well, since someone reminded me of blogging… I decided to write another post…

I can kinda say that this weekend was one of the most busiest weekends I've had in the longest while. So let's see, on Saturday, what ended up happening was waking up super early, then driving to the library and tutoring. The tutorial wasn't bad, better than I expected… and I even wasted time reading books… haha I couldn't help it. I had to like RUN with everyone else and line up to get a room… brings back memories… haha After that… and being 10 bucks richer, I go and do some exercise with my mom… something I haven't done in the longest while… and still today, my mom is whining about, because she is soooo tired… and my arms hurt… haha

    Math school next and wow, my first take-home exam, and also my first time randomly, literally randomly circling answers for multiple choice cause I had no clue what I was doing and I also left things blank… not good… after math, I was supposed to go watch a movie… but I ended up going to Chako, cause my brother for some reason wanted to go. We went to the one in scarborough, the new one that opened… it's pretty nice there, bigger and better than the old one… after that I went home and resumed my reading of A Passage to Boredom India*.

    I started doing some of my work.. like math and chem., and unfortunately I don't understand half (more like everything). So that's not good. On the other hand I was worrying about a bajillion things as usual. Like the interview on Tuesday, how there is soo much work to be done, English, and many many many other things.

Today I surprisingly woke up at 12 noon, wow, I haven't slept in that late since like forever… but I guess it's cuz I was reading passage till 2… so yeah, I was supposed to go to Ikea today, but I ended up reading the book till like 3 and then we left the house and went to dollarama, and home depot. My mom wanted to fix up one of the rooms for my brother, so he could have his own room.. and we're doing all this stuff for him and he's just sitting there on his couch, comfortably and playing games, completely oblivious to everything around him… cannot believe this guy – jeeez

So yeah, we're basically gonna move furniture around and paint the rooms of my house during the course of the week… isn't that exciting?

Hmm… just a random thought… wouldn't it be nice to see people's reactions to things … like see their real reactions… or like be able to see whether they are smiling or crying or their facial expressions as they read things on the other end of their computer?

It has been quite a Loooooong while since I have written a poem… maybe something soon will inspire me to write one…

Lately, with my life being really busy and things seeming really messy… it feels like I or everyone needs a break. We should treasure the time we have and make the best of it. We can only be this age and do certain things and feel certain ways only once… keep that in mind…

Well, time for the quote!... I love quotes, as you can all probably tell by now…

Ok, this one is stolen from some person during the Award's Night last year… haha I'm sure Mr. Hei Yu remembers this…

"a pessimist will see difficulties when opportunities arise, whereas an optimist will see opportunities in difficulties"

- I hope that through all the difficult times in our lives we will be able to live through them, make good decisions and find opportunities during those times. I know that if we are open, take initiative and accept reality, we will definitely succeed and be the best that we can be!

Ohh, and just a question to keep you thinking – it kept me thinking for a while – "what colour is love to you?"

Apparently, the colours vary depending on those you love… =D

Good luck to you all and goodnight!

 

Mike C

Is it worth it?… yes it is!

After school I went home and as I was waiting to go outside for dinner, I decided to sit down and cancel some appointments and call up some people. I called one of the places where I want to volunteer at and cancelled the orientation that I signed up that is supposed to be tomorrow. I feel bad for cancelling, because this is the third time that I cancelled. I called YAY and asked them about how the application progress is going and I also called the York Regional Police and told them that I would be going to their orientation and that I would be bringing a friend with me. Then, just as I finished talking, my phone rang… it was some person that I do not have on my contacts. A person for tutoring, so I'm like yay another person to tutor for next week… just cause I have nothing to do NEXT week. She asked me if I tutored science, and I'm like yes I do, and I would love to tutor you. And then I'm like ok, so when would you like to see me next week… and she's like, actually I have a test on Monday, would I be able to meet with you tomorrow, and I'm thinking "WTF! Are you kidding me!?! Tomorrow, and test on Monday?! Another late person, jeeesh I'm packed tomorrow… euhh" so I tell her that I am busy tomorrow, but she says that she needs the help, so I try my best to find a time when I can tutor her at the library and I think; "hmm, maybe in the morning, but that means that I will have to wake up early…" so yeah it ends up that I have to wake up early tomorrow morning and miss my Saturday morning sleep and go tutor… and I'm tutoring ecology… as I found out, I'm like ohh shoot my stuff is at school… So thank GOD I have a GREAAT friend who just so happened to be at school at that time and helped me get my stuff from my locker and passed it to me… so on behalf of myself and the kid I'm tutoring; THANK YOU! =D

Tonight I have to sleep earlier too… cause I have to wake up early tomorrow, … thinking about it, I don't know if it was a good choice to say yes and tutor tomorrow… but I guess, it's just another thing I'm doing once again to help someone else… let's just hope it actually helps…

It always seems as if I have a lot of work to do and that there is always no stop to it and stress is just bombarding my mind… it's not not fair, I mean, I guess it's life… but I think maybe a break here and there might help….

So let's see… next week is busy too… MYTA on Tuesday… ohh that's what I'm excited for, but I just found out that I am being interviewed by the kids in MYTF… so that's kinda scary… I guess I'd rather be interviewed by adults…

I was thinking the other day, and I realized… well I kinda knew this all along but… I'm just gonna make a big deal of it now haha… well so the thing is that friends are really important. Friends help us through good times and bad times, they are always by our sides. Without my friends, I know that I will not be who I am today, I will not have done what I have done. I do not regret being friends with anyone… except for maybe some people haha… but yeah, friends are great, without them, I would be no where in life and still be lost in a big deep dark never ending tunnel… with not hope…

Well, let's just hope all goes well and my life will continue on as usual, with its normal ups and downs… nothing too out of place, nothing too dramatic…

Another quote for the closing…

"Sometimes we just have to accept the inevitable and face the truth – we can't always have what we want and do what we want or be who we've always wanted to be… sometimes life just doesn't turn out the way we expect or anticipate it to; it's unfortunate, but it's reality… "

Ooo! I like this one too…

Yeah I'm just coming up with these random quotes off the top of my head… so they may not sound right haha

Last one!

"in life, bad things aren't the only things that happen unexpectedly, good things do too!"

Ohh, I kinda have to put this one… this is really the last one and it's stolen from someone… =D

"Twenty years from now, you will be more disappointed by the things that you didn't do than by the things that you did do. So throw off the bowlines, sail away from the safe harbour. Catch the trade winds in your said. "

    Explore.

        Dream.

            Discover.

-Thanks… I know that if I didn't get to know you… (and everyone else) better this year or the last, I would definitely regret and be disappointed in myself "twenty years from now…" You're the best! =D

 

Mike C

04/06/10

I guess it's been a while since I posted... so let's see, what happened during the looong four day weekend. Well, pretty much all I remember is driving! Haha, I drove a lot this weekend, I drove everywhere we went. Well, I watched two movies... the last song and the clash of the titans. OMG the last song was really good, if I wasn't at the theatres I would have cried =D

    I can say that I really enjoyed my long weekend, although there were a few surprises and what not here and there, but overall it was still pretty good. I think I really needed that break. I didn't have much work, nor did I do much work and thank god for that cause I needed the rest. But now its back to school.. I was kinda dreading it yesterday night, but this morning everything was fine, I was actually kinda worried about the meeting for BAM cause I didn't know what I wanted to say yet.

    Well... let's skip what happened during school. When I got back home, I was just feeling lazy and I ended up watching a movie... Astro Boy! Ehh, it was ok I guess, better than I expected, but could have been better. I don't like the days when I don't have any homework, or don't have a lot of homework, a day like today. I only have math to work on, and I am NOT working on it. I have to read an English book, which I should probably start on, but yeah. Well, something good happened today, MADD sent me an email for the volunteering session they are having soon and heart and stroke foundation sent me the new volunteering newsletter, so volunteering and stuff is really good, except for the fact that no one has called my back from YAY yet.

    Lately, although there was the long weekend, I have still been really really tired for some reason. But yeah, hopefully the rest of the week goes well, my marks stay the same, there is less stress, less worries and less work!

Let's end it off with a quote...

"There are many happy times and sad times in our life. But why be unhappy? Why should we be troubled over the little things in life and be discontent? We only live life once, time keeps ticking and we cannot turn back, live life to its fullest and live a happy life!"