Need to stay together

I am going to do really badly

I am going to break down

I need help

No one can help

I do not know what to do

 

I just realized that despite the fact that muskoka was really fun and a good experience and what not it really was not good for my marks. I missed so much stuff. I got to bio today and I had no clue what the teacher was talking about. And I mean its not that I always know what hes talking about but today I was super lost

I had a religion test today which I didn't do good on too, I know it. It surprised me. There were lots of application and thinking questions that I just bs-ed. Then bio. If I did not do the make up test, I think I would've gotten higher, cause I think I would've known more stuff.

Then I realize that we have a bio test on everything I missed this thrusday. And I have a religion project that I didn't even start due on Thursday as well. There is also the loran award application that is due on Thursday. Why is everything due on Thursday.

Then I have extracurriculars, but I am not thinking too much about it. But I feel bad because I need to run it.

Last night I read a prayer. One that I printed off a long time ago.

It was the st. francis prayer:

Lord, make me an instrument of Your peace. Where there is hatred, let me sow love; where there is injury, pardon; where there is doubt, faith; where there is despair, hope; where there is darkness, light; where there is sadness, joy.

O, Divine Master, grant that I may not so much seek to be consoled as to console; to be understood as to understand; to be loved as to love; For it is in giving that we receive; it is in pardoning that we are pardoned; it is in dying that we are born again to eternal life.

well, the cool thing is that this morning on the announcements, this was coincidentally the prayer they said. So yeah I thought that was pretty cool

and because I was freaking out, I decided to open another [believe] card.

This is what it said:

"Everyday holds the possibility of a miracle"

• Elizabeth davids
  

Isn't that just a wooow. It fit perfectly too. Unfortunately I don't think a miracle really happened. I still didn't do well on my tests. I think.

I've got so much work to do. I think today was the first day this year that I actually felt overwhelmed, like seriously overwhelmed. I half broke down when I got home. But I refrained myself from most consequences.

I think I understand how people say grade 12 is harder. Like I really don't think the material is that that much harder right now. But I know the workload is heavier. Like we have so much projects, assignments, homework and tests for every subject. And they never stop coming. So we never get a break.

Anyways

This is enough,

I have to get back to work